Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

It’s taken me a long time to be okay with being who God created me to be. Psalm 139 used to be a tough one for me, so just I avoided reading it… Fearfully and wonderfully made??? Definitely not me! Growing up, I just never really fit anywhere, always the square peg so to speak. Then add in coming from a divorced family that was always surrounded by strife, and you meet somebody who was completely lost and had no self-worth.
I remember one day walking by someone I knew and I kind of coward my head down and walked by without speaking. I suddenly realized that I did that a lot! I remember being aware in that moment that my natural thought process was that when I saw someone I knew, I automatically assumed that they wouldn’t notice me or wouldn’t remember me, so I would just walk on by. As unimportant as I felt, I realized that I needed to overcome this habit and be courageous enough to speak up with a simple hello. After that time, I went through this phase when I would first address people by saying, “Hey! Do you remember me?” And the response would always be something like “Well, yes, of course I do!”
But that was me! My struggle with being okay with who God created me to be occurred daily. As God began steadily flooding my heart and soul with the light of His truth, I began to slowly accept that I too had been fearfully and wonderfully made for His good pleasure and purpose; my many quirks and all! For the first time, beginning in March of 2004, God began the process of really healing me… Not just changing my behavior, but true healing by way of transformation.
The process was slow to start with, but His steady and faithful work in my life became more and more evident over time. For years I had struggled with a horrible eating disorder. There was a time in my life when I thought that this would be a battle I’d fight forever, but I remember waking up one morning in May of 2005 realizing that God had set me free from its’ chains! I wrote this moment of freedom down in my Bible next to 1 Corinthians 6:19, 20 as a memorial of what God had done in my life, because I never wanted to forget how He had set me free!
There are times when my insecurities want to arise again. As God calls for me to write, I am guilty of saying, “Okay God, I have said enough lately. It’s time for me to be quiet and lay low for a while. I don’t want to be under scrutiny of others and their opinions of me.” And then God says, “No, I have more for you to share. I’m not done.”
As God laid this heavily upon my heart this morning, I couldn’t resist His prompting to share. I know that there is someone who needs to know and remember that it is impossible for God to lie (Heb. 6:18), that He sanctifies us through the truth of His word (John 17:17), and He says that YOU, yes YOU, are fearfully and wonderfully made! He thoughtfully put YOU together in your mother’s womb and YOU have had the personal touch of Jesus as He formed your very being!
God lovingly meets us where we are, shortcomings and all, and as He begins His good work, He WILL faithfully finish what He has started! Bring your struggles, hurts, and wounds, and lay them at His feet today!